Sunday, August 19, 2012

Anything But Desperate


Throughout our summer, much of our adoption focus has been on the financial side.  While paperwork needed so far is completed, surprise speed bumps and unique decision points have slowed the legal side of our process, financial progress has remained a focus.

Turns out, adoptions are pretty expensive. Whether domestic or international, the price tag for an adoption climbs pretty high pretty quick.  The numbers can even make one feel desperate.  But through numerous events, we have found ourselves feeling anything but desperate.

We’ve seen friends volunteer their commission to us as we host a product party.  A time where generosity trumped desperation.

We’ve seen family and friends of family (some with no connections to us) plan, organize, and work a garage sale.  A time where hard work trumped desperation.  We even watched as those unsold items were taken to another garage sale, kept separate, and sold again for our financial gain.  A time again, where desperation felt like the last emotion we could feel as we were overwhelmed with the gratitude of so many others.

And we’ve seen most recently money arrive in our mailbox.  People moved by their faith in God, and their understanding of how they may be a part of our adoption story to show that faith trumps our desperation.

We’ve responded with thank you cards, with hugs, with words of gratitude, and often with private tears.  We can’t adequately express the gratitude we feel to those who have helped.  We haven’t been able to yet, and will likely never be able to, but we will try.

But what we can confirm is true is that while the numbers of dollars associated with our adoption process can lead towards desperation, we have instead found the generosity and faithfulness of others. Some who we have extreme bond and connection with and some who are distant acquaintances.  We are filled with faith that we are walking through a journey designed by God for us.  We feel strengthened when we should feel desperate, and confident while we should feel confused.  We feel anything but desperate.